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by Jennifer Santiago.

My reflection in the mirror
Paleness and fatigue is all I see
I look but don’t recognize
My body has betrayed me.

You say you can’t cure me ‘It’s chronic not deadly.’
Blue pills, yellow pills, too many pills
These strangers are trying to break me
Hospitals and needles; can you inject me with faith?

The physical pain I can take
It’s the helplessness that kills me
I keep pushing, keep breathing
Please give me my space.

I focus on strength, not fear
Watch me endure, no more fighting back tears
Finally I’m in a place where no one can touch me
I’ve found acceptance and THIS is what saves me.

(C) Jennifer Santiago (as part of andycarrington.co.uk, 2009).